There is this feeling that I get sometimes But I'll never find the words to describe It happens to me when I'm sober (a fool's litany) It happens to me when I'm drunk (the fool's litany) It falls somewhere in between it's all too much and everything at once Wander with me, wonder with me Until the darkness falls Don't worry we won't feel anything at all Life is but a dream I can't be certain but I believe We were married in the spring I can't be certain of anything There is this feeling that I get sometimes But I'll never find the words to describe It happens to me when I'm sober (a fool's litany) It happens to me when I'm fucked (the fool's litany) It falls somewhere in between it's not enough and everything at once It falls somewhere in between her loveliness and all the stars above Life is but a dream I can't be certain but I believe that life is but a dream You say you love her so But you can't remember her Anymore

You are my guardian demon In some strange way She said you’re wrong for the world But right for me Wasted words Wasted Wasted words are wasted Wreck, defy Lucky cans behind the legion (on a six band bill) Used condom bookmark Left in a bible In Keith’s apartment Wasted words, wasted Wasted words are Wasted You drunken tottering bum by Christ in spite of all your filth and sordidness I envy you It is the very face of love itself abandoned in that powerless committal to despair* You are my guardian demon In some strange way * - From the William Carlos Williams poem, "The Drunkard"

Our whole lives spent trying be grateful To the sad machinery I know you've got good intentions But it's over your youth has been reduced to A misty rain that barely touches your face Touches your face Our whole childhood saving up our spirit For the great release I know you've got bad intentions But it's over the truth has been rescinded All that’s left is (your) shame In the misty rain... I won't look into your eyes Just to see you paralyzed I want surprise I won't look into your eyes Just to see you strategize I want surprise We're saving up our spirit For the great release

Even though I couldn't live without your love Don't stop me wondering What kind of love I'd have with someone else And even though I can't breathe without your kiss I hold my breath and dream of other lips I miss Oh I knew There's no after you We're at our best We're still youngesque Even though I forgive your every whim I just can't say the same For me or him Even though I could die without you knowing You are my heartbeat It's still going Oh I knew There's no after you We're at our best We're still youngesque Even though I couldn't live without your love It don't stop me crying now Just like some morning dove

Let me start by saying - Victoria you look so fine You're my lyrical device, symbol of the divine I don't really see you 'cept when I close my eyes Every night flashing lights, the words "love never dies" How did it happen, how did we meet? Halifax early autumn 2am in the street Nikki Minaj and way too much wine Back to your apartment god there's not enough time For anything I lost my band, some friends and my mind My dad went insane and left it all behind And the city I love like some beacon of light Drifting farther away praying I made the right decision Hoping it wouldn't haunt me later Like that ruined the song should have muted that fader 'Cause it was a lie and I never meant it Sounded good at the time hindsight can't prevent it Celebrate Singularity Remember that night we stayed in the van? To argue on Darwin and the folly of man While the party was raging I believed in you You believed in me and we saw it through to the end God we tried, all those records and shows You finally found the right girl but Caroline knows All that you've given and what's left inside Mark you're my brother what a beautiful ride We're still on Sister when I tell you that there's no control It's not an excuse it's just that our souls Are tethered to chaos and sorrow and bliss I choose the latter but sometimes we miss Every person that we've ever loved Don't get caught in the past or blinded from above 'Cause there's nothing up there but emptiness and stars And there's nothing sadder than moving to mars When we're still here We're still here Every inch of this planet that I walk upon Imperial darkness it's metric I want A measure of peace these people just like me Born in the wrong place with the wrong skin so they can't be free I don't feel guilty for being lucky in life But I don't confuse luck with god-given right To be a romantic in a world so obscene Victoria, help me pick a dream To make real Let love be The singularity

Lie to me with respect Say you didn't love me since we were kids Lie to me with respect: It never could have lasted you never felt anything we did Lie to me with respect I was too young To give you all of it Driving in your car The tape deck playing "Slide" by Goo Goo Dolls late fall Driving in your car Ten years ago I saw us older and lovers after all Driving in your car My hand on your thigh So happy I knew that this would die Cheryl We'll grow older Cheryl Is the story over? What's left to be said? A hundred drunken phone calls while you're curled up in your bed It's so goddamned sad Things that never shoulda happened Baby, they all had 1995 We sat in the same row in class I could see it in your eyes 20 years of crossing paths and wires shooting sparks that shine on a love that never dies A love that never dies Cheryl We'll grow older Cheryl Is the story over?

Don’t try to make a moment permanent I’m caught in the twilight downtown All of a sudden All of the coloured lights in the trees Come on at the same time Maybe we’re taking on water But I don’t mind sinking with you Natasha I’m at the seawall the sky wide And the stars blazing Do you love them like I do Do you love life like I do? Maybe we’re taking on water But I don’t mind sinking with you Natasha We solved Many a mystery You’re a pale storm You’re a maelstrom Made for me Don’t try to make a moment permanent I’m caught in the twilight alone Don’t try to make a moment permanent Grasp the beauty and terror in the stillness He was kind He was kind and useless I decided it was kinder to deceive you We solved Many a mystery You’re a pale storm You’re a maelstrom Made for me Made for me

Baby I thought I saw you last night On a casual encounter Under Victoria starlight Starlight Baby I know I saw you last night I ran through the trees And watched you wait expectantly Baby you know I watched you last night On a casual encounter The person you were waiting for was me It was me Are we both this lonely? Are we both this blue? Don't need a name, an age, a face Just as long as they're not you Anyone but you Baby I swear I saw you last night Should I propose to you again On this casual encounter Through the trees Are you surprised to see me? Under Victoria starlight Starlight

The false dawn. The right’s wrong How can we be sure? In such darkness we are always - We are always late The false dawn. The sun’s gone Cocaethylene We made a mixture Chemistry in our livers We defy Not deify The heartless men Grown so afraid Sunlight comes. Warms your skin Opens your heart, lets me back in Sunlight pours on the ocean still Perfect blue, a staggering beauty no greed could fill Beams of light. On porcelain skin Wake up love, the world starts again The false dawn, the right’s wrong How can we be sure? In such darkness we are always - We are always late The false dawn. I’ve been wrong But god’s not listening The false dawn. Job’s song The void’s perfect symphony The universe expands

Look he's going crazy Guess it's time to live somewhere new Drag along the cat the dog the kid the wife And all his vices too I stepped into the great unknown the meaninglessness so profound Green perfect and doomed I faded fast I lost my grasp on all the glory in my past That made every day new "I give up" is the only taboo So look he's going crazy Off to rehab or paradise You know it'll be some grand gesture when a sigh would suffice I burned away my backup plans I swore I'd never have I'll find some other way I'll never be the greatest but I'm still fuckin' great Still got a few things to say... You know I live in awe of you He said learn to cut your losses Well maybe I love to lose That's not even true But the girls showed up with cigarettes the skinny ones, Virginia Slims There's a virgin in ya too He's the kid who would have hated you 17 meet 31 He's a version of you, Albeit a shitty one 31 meet 17 Kind of a cunt But following his dreams

Do you see the stream running both ways? The poetry in never understanding If we end it now it was damn near perfect Feel the cold sheets this motel room Tacky artwork I've never done this If we start now I have His blessing I am a simple man I have religion You are my living proof Do you see the stream flowing both ways? A key inside each anomaly A secret inside each anomaly

I go down on you And taste your blood Eat your ass Baby that’s love Megaclang Iggy Pop Strange prisoners Playing ping pong with a cop (at a party) At a party Was it Wisconsin? We traded handcuffs for a shot of gin We cuffed McKeen To a riser Before the cop left Let us all try the breathalyzer Did I fail Did I pass It depends on who you ask Faking a feeling To face the day More than the dull ache That just won’t go away Call me selfish Or you don’t understand But it’s all there in the songs Or weren’t you in that band? Faking a feeling Till I make it to grace Not this fucking wreck That’s taken my place Yeah that’s Bright Eyes When I was 16 Music was my saviour It was everything Did I fail Did I pass It depends on who you ask Something stopped in her eyes, (that night by the fire) In her eyes In November she left you entirely (broken. Back to your parents house) There is an emptiness I cannot place Inside a memory Left barely a trace There is an emptiness I cannot place Inside a memory Where all love fades

The righteous indignation Addicted to resentment Anxious in the sunlight Terror in the moonlight Showed up to the battle Unprepared and bored There’s blood in the bathroom The shower’s running cold Try to reconcile darkness with disconnect The black clouds roll in it’s not raining in the bar The storm is in your heart the safest place is in your car Drive to the outskirts cast me in the dirty river and drown And for a moment you might have Seen the ending light And for a moment you might have Felt the ending light I miss my friends Now they live in my head

I was drunk but I was used to it don't write a sad song just to be sad make it strong and shining full-hearted Give it all that you have the gap between moments the city sprawling silver cold and awash in light you thought, "unlikely" but I think I might My train flew off the tracks A woman was the rip in the rail Dead in life They’re all dead in life We became friends after a fight in grade 5 (verse) Did you write it right Did people “like” he’s a mystery I don’t care if he’s evil It’s human touch he still believes in It’s human touch and he hopes he needs it now I'm not saying we're Joe and Mick or Paul and John in the early days but I think of you now and - that song, I Won't Share You by The Smiths Morrissey's plea to Johnny - "I'll miss you forever." Maybe we're a broke man's Paul and Tommy I could live with that. Maybe we're an Etown Levon and Robbie I could live with that and maybe someday you'll come back. These moments pass So let them go These moments pass Nobody else ever really needs to know you know I wish only the best for you.